These giant war machines are made from humans and fed with fear and repression, terror and blood. Contrary to our ideas about humanism and progress, they did not think of going anywhere and were only preparing for the next world war, gradually turning the crowned face into a mad emperor, uniting sacred and political power in order to sanctify the river of blood with the cross, to send people to the sacred slaughter. It wasn’t just one person who went crazy — it was all of us who were crazy and didn’t realize that our planet with depleting resources was and is in hands of gigantic systems competing with each other. Now, with new zeal, these resources are being turned into new weapons, military budgets are growing, and each side claims to be guarding the world and protecting it from fascism.
This is the same story of the struggle that created the modern world and its states, and already in kindergarten we learned that we must be for the good and against the bad. Still, beyond the apparent triumph of the old stories, something else is going on.

This world is constructed by the stories we tell about it. Which one feels closer to you? The story of a new plague? A story about QR codes and digital dystopia? A story about enemies of the nation? The story about the competition and war of all against all?
These stories are not new, but they are still amongst the top stories. By the way, this New Year is not rich with new stories. Soviet television still shows films made before my birth. And the songs that I remember from my childhood. And the president’s New Year speech, from which nothing new is expected. But this endless repetition is happening not only in my homeland. Star Wars VIII? Netflix’s The Witcher? Harry Potter 20 Years Later? Matrix IV? It seems like the budgets for the writers have been cut, and my reality is more and more like a treadmill with endless repetitions. “Eternal return?” No, because now these stories are not the same. And they are not at all convincing…

Several days ago I read two articles. One of them was “Awakening to the Traumacene” written in 2019 by member of Deep Adaptation community and founder of the “Quillwood Academy” Eric Garza. The second one was “Stray Thoughts on Meditation” written in 1986 (the year I was born) by American meditation teacher Shinzen Young. By accident these two texts were open on my laptop in the same time. I try to be attentive to coincidences, especially when they seem to be meaningful and tell me something important… I am no way an expert in the psychology of trauma or meditation practices, yet still I saw the important interconnectedness of these two texts and I want to share it with you.

This article explores psychological responses to climate change with the lenses of brain hemisphere imbalance, the fragmentation process of collective trauma and the Jungian maturation theory of two halves of life, which views suffering as a necessary component in the move towards a ripened culture. The perspective of climate trauma is widened to an inter-generational aspect. The article argues that the disowned and marginalised aspects of society need to be re-integrated, bridging cultural compartmentalisation and balancing the unequal representation of left and right hemisphere attributes. The writing itself aims to demonstrate this by weaving in and out of different paradigms.

A very insightful reading about this amazing and changing year. "Deterrence" allows us to re-live not the events, but the states of 2020

Essay

Essay about coronavirus, death, life and happines, published with the author's consent.

Report about participation at Immersion "Seeds of Action: Post-Apocalyptic Hopelessness and Hope"

50 people speaking different languages, belonging to various cultures, majoring in different disciplines gathered in the south of Arkhangelsk region in March, 2020. We all have been looking at the present and to the future without avoiding the immersion in such topics as crises and catastrophes.

Growth is simply one step in ecosystems resonance, and exponential growth is only one very short phase in countless cycles of waves of ecosystem evolution